I don’t know how to explain it.

You don’t seem happy at all.

Maybe it’s just me, maybe I am the only one who feels this way.

I cannot seem to understand, but my senses are always true. 
I think too much, I get lost in those endless thoughts.

What they fail to see in me, is that now I have wisdom, back then, I did not.

I was a stupid, unreasonable child. I am no longer that when it comes to keeping something that I truly love.

I can deal with the sacrifices. Because you are worth it, you are worth every bit.

I will love no one, and I will live for myself.

I am not going to pretend that you do not piss me the fuck off.
You do, both of you do.
For various reasons.

How the fuck, did I ever end up being with some stupid piece of shit?

With your bullshit lies and your little faith in me.
Fuck you.

And fuck  you too, you disgusting lying piece of shit.
You are not smart, you just fool morons.

I swear to  your fucking miserable life. You make me want to rip my own flesh off.

Both of you.

It is because of you, that I question why I am even alive, everyday.

I was in the kitchen watching the sunset through the window, about to make coffee, and i just started crying, I can’t believe I’m this fucked up.

And I’m not even drunk.

Sometimes fate brings two lovers together..

..Only to tear them apart.

I will let love bleed..
Darker and deeper than the seas of hell.

I only saw the light for a moment.

Until I was engulfed by the vast darkness.

I used to enjoy talking to you.

You made me feel like I had a friend who cared for me.

I’d get excited whenever I’d receive your letters.

But now, You have changed, for the worst.

You are not the being I used to care for.

You are something disgusting.

Going back on your words, your purposes.

I can no longer feel the way that I did towards you.

You said you wanted to give me a better life, and yet, I do not see anything better about it. Infact you are only repeating the mistakes that the horrible person made.

You don’t even want to help me, you are selfish, and disgusting, you want to control me, but you won’t.

I will live the life that I want to, without your help, without you.

I do not need someone like you in my life.

Thank you for being what you once were, but I am done.

I will get cured, and become independent without your help.